Queezy
Gotta weird icky feeling going on right now, like that ya feel like somethings not right or your feeling funky like something really wrong yet everything seems sane and OK and right. Still I can't shake it, came home after a while cuddled up with hubs and left thinking nope that didn't help he didn't even wake up nor did anything I really say phase him. Oh well. Sure it's nothing. I'm maybe feeling bored I wanted so much to cuddle up and watch a movie or something but he's like a log, lays there not moving and just rolls. Oh well again...
I guess I havn't really felt I've had much conversation with anyone that I really care about latley. General shit I guess nothing too personal just little Hiya's and howya doings. Just like My bloggin it's like I don't want to go deep into anything and why I don't know but maybe I'm afraid of talking about anything?? Hahaha stupid. typing that out makes me think i'm like duh.. dumb. Seems like everyone I want to talk to just come back with snap backs and snotty comments and I always thought I was a person that loves input and more views and sides to things, yet I find myself feeling like negative vibes, well not vibes but reactions to anything and everything I say. Makes me not want to say anything at all. Hard to talk to people sometimes that your looking to just listen I wonder if I do that to people? One of my new years resolutions was to listen more.. be a listerner more than a talker and I've really been trying that. But with like Hubs if I didn't talk 1st we'd never talk about anything really. Silly ...
Guess I'll just talk the small talk till I can't talk no more. Having one of those I have NO IDEA moments going on. OK since hubs won't wake up I'm going back to our room shutting the door and hoggin the entire bed to myself. I'm off to read a little tata for now...