I hadda ton of clothes to fold did about 10 loads of laundry today so decided while kids napping and me folding I'd call my mom. She was OK didn't say much of anything.. teased if she was coming home anytime??? talked about how I'd love to come but circumstances always come up that don't allow it.. (hubs truck now) not that that is a major distraction but for now it is today that is.. but she sounded nothing even thought of yet on their part for the holidays that's OK I guess.. But I just felt dis-attached with our conversations.. maybe it's just me yet I don't know I've been pretty happy 2day.
I guess I just assume that my life is here.. my kids my hubby, jobs.. friends.. my parents live away.. and that's OK.. just that I something feels funny there. Maybe it's talks with my dad the past year or two or mom or that their home is there now and that I havn't been there I'm not part of it.. nor will I ever be??? Silly of me I'm sure. And it isn't like My mom or me ever had that close of a relationship and my dad and me didn't for sure.. during high school ya know I was not doing anything they wanted me to do and when i got preggy at 18 that was the end of my ties toward "'home' and that's ok.. but tht distanced me further and now that I have kids of my own and as they grow I find myself wishing I had a 'real' relationship with my folks but just have to realize I probably never will. I look at hubs and omg he has no family around ever and I wonder if that ever bugs him???
Holidays are up and coming and I am just trying to decide something different for my family this year. Maybe a trip or a mini vacation. I actually thought about reserving a room down by hubby's hometown picking up the girls.. get joining hotel rooms or something and spending thanksgiving in a hotel?? Does that sound silly or non-thanksgiving like?? LOL I'm used to the traditional turkey and 20 course meal with family, cousins and friends .. but cousins all moved and grown and gone and all have familys of their own.. and we still get together for xmas... just I don't feel like doing the traditional thanksgiving this year like I've done the past 3.. my grandparents .. my aunt and uncle from 2 hours away and their dogs and sometimes my other aunt and uncle in town but not usually if my grandparents come it's stupid family fued story there.. but anyways.. I want to start by doing something different.. almost wish I had a big house we're I'd invite everyone that feels as lost as I do. LOL..
So what's for supper at my house.. I put a roast with carrots and potatos in my nummy sauce all in the over at 3.. I scooped out some acorn squash to put in and made Jello-jigglers. Watermelon flavored for dessert., I still have to make this cream of broccoli soup I found the recipe online it sounds nummy, but I don't have any fat-free evaporated milk.. I'll have to hit the store quick when J gets home from school.