Ohhh I had 5 days off.. two which I spent in stupid tooth pain which I'm not going to go into it's negative thinking and I'm so being in a good mood. Got home and hubs still awake watching TV and got to cuddle up with him and our new little kitty for a bit and talked on the cell the whole way home. I miss my hubby. Something has so been missing the past few months, my friends, family, kids and hubby I've been distant off on my thoughts or something.
Realizing that I've started reading again and crocheting to keep my mind occupied on happy things, and picked up the phone and started calling my 2 good friends in town and I'd say somewhat rekindled a friendship. Not to ever be what it used to be just because I don't have the time to invest in it like I used to b4 I had little kids and a job and the same with them busy working and with kids.. but still..
Friends are great, so my other GF is all nice and calling me everyday again now, not too much yet... and I am going to go outta my way to keep on the best of terms and try to make an effort back. My one friend is great anyways I miss her a lot now that we're all friendy again. I forgot how much I liked her. So besides reading and kids, house, hubs, crocheting xmas gifts and work and friends, family I havn't had much time to come online that's for sure.
One thing about her is I can tell her almost anything and she will listen, totally and never over-reply but listen .. she'll also tell me straight out what she thinks if needed, yet it's always in harmony with what I'm feeling and thinking for the most part. I can bitch about hubs and she can relate and she can bitch about supper and kids and hey I can relate... and I
never have to worry about saying too much or keeping anything inside cuz you can talk away for hours even.. and she's never one to judge me too harshly or try to be all defensive or one-sided but will gasp and say Ohhhh OMG. I am not afraid of her.
Onto more self-discovery. So I've spent the week ordering books to read! I've gotten 6 online this week so far, and just started "The Power of a Positive Mom" by Karol Ladd. I need to get back the 'real' me. I mean I'm usually pretty positive and happy I think, just I've been in a terriable slump I think and going back to the time and things I used to do when I was content I hope will help me. I should make a list of things I think might help.. I know going to bed at earlier times would be one of the biggy's.. that way I could awake feeling refreshed and not tired and have more time and energy with the kids. This week was GREAT! I went to bed with hubs 4 nights outta 5 and it was so great on our relationship as well. I am making a point to go to bed at night earlier at least. I know it's later now, but jsut getting off work I need to unwind somehow. I guess I could go read some more. OK off to beddy bye!
