SDQUIT
OK made the call to the American Cancer Society. Seemed pretty harsh n gave reality to be calling a "cancer" society assoc. to get help quitting something that I do that can cause cancer. So I have officially enrolled in their Help couciling program to quit smoking. Wow the questions they ask but I just have to do this. My biggest goal was to quit b4 I turn 30.. And I just can't seem to do it on my own or something.. like this morning with the crabbypants I just wanted to smoke smoke smoke.. and I'm not a morning smoker at all. So I'm sure I'll be talking a lot about trying to quit again on my blog as my tool to talk about it. Nice you have 24 access to concilers to help you thru those tuff times.. but did suggest I get Zyban for my anexity. I told them it's that nervous antsy feeling I have even now just thinking about quiting that keeps me from doing it. Some think it is in your mind.. whatever it may be I don't know what drives a person to do it.. then talking to women that quit talking about all the weight they gained or how 3 months later they started again.. or how even years later still have that craving worries me. Funny how a little stick of tabacco can make ya so nutty. Pray for me.
Ok so Hubs is gone for awhile said he's bored and had to get outta here.. well good go then I thought cuz he's crabby moppin round here when there is a million things he could be doing. Pisses me off a lot although I'm not trying to act crabby back cuz I wouldn't get us anywhere anyways. But jeez on my days off I' always busy doing shit round the house n cleaning this or that or something thought we were planting our grass seed 2day and hauling in 3 yards of dirt.. he doesn't want to do anything we need to get done but bitches nothing to do.. bored. Think it comes down to he's pissy cuz he wanted to go fishing 2day. I said Go I'd rather he be gone doing that then pissing around bitching. So I called and rented the yard blower raker thing and 3 yards of dirt to be delivered myself N i'll just plant the seed myself.. outta think about building a dog kennel myself as well cuz he's just not been in mood to help out with anything but whine and piss round about this junk truck he bought. Now his mom n little brother are coming up for easter week. Coming up Tuesday night next week thru sunday for easter. OMG I just don't get his family it's a long story and I don't really get along with his mom.. I do I respect her but I disagree she has been so mean to my hubs in words and in letter then 2 days later calls like nothings wrong long story.. but not been a good mom.. and the thought of me entertaining her for 4 days while he's working.. let alone my days I like spent alone with my kids.. I don't know why I'm being bitchy about it.. but they lay all over my house.. and I'm not into lazy and watching movies.. OMG just my house n even my parents don't stay with us. I just won't get to lounge around in my PJ's till noon now.. but feel i'll have to be up cooking a feast of a breakfest at 5am or something LOL. OMG I should go I'm sure everyone thinks I'm bitchy for the in-law thing I'm not.. just Ohhhh I don't know what it is. Be different if hubs was home but even when company is up it's always me doing everything but then that's nothing new. I gotta get ready for work Bye