Twilight

Writing about my life and things in it and what I think

Saturday, July 19, 2003

Choc Cake

Wish I'd have had my camera at work 2nite because there was the funniest looking wedding rehersal cake at work ever.. ok it wasn't horriable.. but did look kinda like a pile of brown poopie.. cuz ya never really see an all choc cake.. all stacked in sqares .. no color like that one was.. it was great cake to eat.. Mmmm chocolate of course my favorite.. but was fun to look at and more fun to hear everyone's comments on it. Bet it took the lady a long time to make and it was delicious I almost feel bad now after hearing all those bad comments cuz I'm sure it took tons of time. And the fish were uniquie.. very. And different I like different. Just 1st glance was like OMG.

SOOOOO My boss's had a baby girl on Wednesday morning. She is a doll. So little and sooo cute and cuddly Ohhhh It's almost hard to hold a new born I get that urge to want to have another.. or to just run off to a corner and cuddle and coo and baby talk.. baby's always smell so nummy and little looks n grunts n just sooo delicate and precious. She's a honey. I remember my baby girl.. the hours of just rocking and talking to her.. cuddlin when she was so little. Ohhhh the time flies by so fast. OK I gotta few things to do as usually.. wanted to hit crazy days tomorrow but not sure i'll make it kinda late and I'm really tired.. believe it or not. Could be the working out i've done past 2 days and the fact I didn't have any pop 2nite at work.. and only one can this morning. This diet stuff makes me tired.. nooo just been a very long week. K bye for now

Tuesday, July 15, 2003

2 4 tuesday

: It's Two for Tuesday Time :.
1. I woke up singing "It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood...a beautiful day in the neighborhood..." and it got met thinking of simpler days. What show or cartoon did you grow up on?
Seaseme Street was #1. I still sing some of those jingles too.. the song I sing is the 1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10-11-12 dodo do dodo do.. lmao

2. Did you have a collection as a child (barbies, hot wheels, cabbage patch kids)?
oh yes.. lots of things thruout my childhood.. 1st with babies.. barbies.. I had one cabage patch with the rest of my dolls.. I collected anything that had a rainbow color. Sopose the most was dolls n stuff.

Baby Baby Baby

Ohhhh My boss' parents just called we will be closed tonight because they went into the hospital this morning with contractions.. havin their baby.. her due date was the 20th so she's right on time. I got so excited when they called.. but now i'm just sitting here thinking.. OMG did they have it yet? Wonder how she's feeling/doing.. wonder if they have a call list after baby born and if I'll be on it.. cuz I'm like wanting to call the hospital and ask if they've had it yet but sopose it's too early yet if they just went in. Sure i'll find out in time enough anyways just excited to hear the news. YEAH :) :) :)

This or That

1. Bugs Bunny or Daffy Duck? Daffy
2. Tom or Jerry? Tom
3. Mickey Mouse or Donald Duck? Mickey
4. Rocky & Bullwinkle or Boris & Natasha? Rocky & Bullwinkle
5. Road Runner or Wile E. Coyote? Road Runner
6. Sylvester or Tweety? Tweety
7. Popeye or Bluto? Popeye
8. South Park or The Simpsons? Simpsons
9. Jetsons or Flintstones? OMG Toss.. both :)
10. And finally, the eternal question asked by all good Scooby-Doo fans: Velma or Daphne? Daphne by far

Unconscious Mutterings

I say... You Think...

  1. Natalie:: Cole
  2. Concrete:: sidewalk
  3. AIDS:: very sick
  4. Rubber hose:: green
  5. Paper clip:: colored clips
  6. Route 66:: tv show
  7. Summer camp:: black hills
  8. Coin purse:: grandma
  9. Orion:: belt
  10. Instigate::turkey

Photo Friday

I finally got my photo for friday's theme of "symmetry" done 2day. After finding a lot of different things that I found more simple and symetrical.. the final picture I choose as those tall eletrical transformers ya see .. I always have admired them.. looking like giant robots.. with wires connecting electricity from one to the next and always aligned so straight.. driving by as a child I would always blink at the moment they would all align and imagine that at the exact moment I could make a wish and whatever I wished would almost always come true. Silly I know.. but was fun to think.. I still find myself blinking at those exact moments.

I found this set of wires neat cuz they were out in the middle of nowhere on a drive 2day out in the country 15 or so miles east of here and made of wood.. old wooden ones.. neat. Anyways wanna see the pic.. here.. lol almost forgot to link ya to it.

Salads Mmmm

Salads salads n more salads.. Hummm diets are so much fun but I love salads so it's ok. Fried up 2 lbs of bacon and a whole bag of chix breasts. Cuting up 2 giant breasts into little chunks n Mmmm fried up n all kinds of spices will be nummy to throw on my salads the next week for lunch as well as the bacon. Note the radish and the carrotts are from my garden Nummy but the radish is almost too hot n spicy to eat.. wow.. fresh n hot. Took the kids to the park 2nite and out for ice cream cones they are so cute and had so much fun. Oh gotta go chat i'll maybe be back

Monday, July 14, 2003

Diets

OK so it's been i think 7 or 8 weeks now since I quit smoking. Not doing the patches things for past 3 weeks and that other week it was every other day or thrid cuz I kept forgetting to put the patch on. I havn't taken my Zyban but once this week so I might as well stay off that as well. I still have no urge to smoke although when working and people up at the bar people come in from dinning room all the time to smoke and sit at the bar and just blow it like right in my face and those are the times I feel the wrost.. Not that feeling of I want one.. but my head gets dizzy and sickish feeling just from the smell. Not sure what causes that.. or if I walk in and smell smoke I still have that jumpy feeling of something maybe it's still the craving eating at me i don't know just know i don't want one.

But off that note... since been so long and I gained a bit over 15lbs since i quit smoking it's time to get seriously busy on a new diet plan and exercise thingy. OK so instead of the 20-30bls I wanted to lose it's now 35-45 or so.. and omg that's a lot. or sounds like a lot now. Kinda depressing did so good keeping all that 30lbs i lost off.. oh well.. I plan on going to the square to exercise 2nite..and i'm working 2morrow night for the other bartender cuz she wanted off and I wanted thrusday off so that's cool.. but wed my oldest said he'd babysit if I wanted to go work out that day.. and friday sat and sun' I can go anytimes hubs is home... Sooo just to stick to it any make myself go is the hard part. Or getting the energy to just get up and go more.

I woke up cuz of a thunderstorm this morning at a little after 7.. and wide awake considering I went to bed at 230.. but stayed up til 9 and felt great and then I thought I should be soo tired.. so said taking a lil morning nap and laid back down from 9-10 and woke up and then felt more tired and crappy. LOL wish I had normal sleeping hours or something cuz now i've been lazy ever since and just waiting for little ones to lay down for their afternoon nap so I can. But after working last 5 nights I sooo look forward to my monday naps.

OMG ever see that meow-mix commercial where the kitty goes meow meow meow meow singing and this one starts out the hubby is on the couch going-- beer beer beer beer.. LMAO too funny just love it. Sopose to be getting my hair chopped on Wed but not sure what the heck to do with it. Cut short.. trim.. butch.. just take off some? Humm i can almost get it all in a ponytail.. grrr

OK I better clean up my dinner mess. So on my diet again lets see..
I hadda 1/2 grapefruit for breakfest.. at 10ish.. and at noon i ate my 3 pieces of bacon and 3 scrambled eggs. So I'm making shis-ka-bobs for supper. Meat and veggies again. Mmmm yet blahhhh cuz I'm too boring of a cook to think up neat ways of making the stuff and after awhile i get soo bored with eating a can of beans or peas.. lol OK i gotta run

Sunday, July 13, 2003

Givin up

I give up.. yeap i do.. just sick of it all. Sick of trying to make everyone happy and being happy and wishing everyone happy when someone's out to purposely not make me happy and trying to bring me down.. and kills me cuz like the person that should be happy i'm happy... Grrrr omg it's so bad n i'm so mad i just feel like some days/nights throwing the towel in and going back to those days when it was just me n my son n kids and no one else to care or worry about. Or more worry that they didn't care cuz how i feel. Just 2nite i've about had it and i'm at the end of my ropes and no matter how hard I try to make it better and be happy and make me smile and him i can't and can't help but get more upset and fustrated and sick of smiling and pretending that i wanna puke. Grrrrr god help.