Stay Outta my Way
Hubs gets off work at 11 on Friday and stopped and got the mail. I opened something addressed to me and it was a sympathy card from the Vet office signed by everyone from the office on the loss of my kitty.. Ohhh how sweet I thought and touching to realize yeah it's not dumb or bad to feel so bad about the death of a pet.. I'm sure many people feel as bad as I do about it. Dwelling on it isn't good either.. just when I get home from work it's always let the dog out to run/play and when we come in the puppy chases the cat.. and they play and now Belle runs in and no kitty.. it's like she misses snuggles too. And when I sit down no one's cuddlin my feet like Hey Lady.. give me some loving.. like my kitty always there when ya need to feel important in a quiet way.. never talks back.. just lays there n so relaxed always cats are.. and so mellow.. petting him was like Ohhh so lazy.. and relaxing.
Somedays I feel like a big ole nark. Not that I am.. just pissed me off 2nite cuz people kept coming thru my station and getting in the way and getting into almost fights with customers.. at the bar. I said something twice and the 2nd time T goes well just since you don't smoke anymore.. and I thought.. ya know what.. even when I did.. I didn't smoke during supper hours.. sure after I had my meal at night I'd have one and then after that if more relaxed and stuff sure.. and longest time I never did even b4 that cuz didn't like it when people out there I never really did unless I knew it was ok or who it was infront of.. anyways.. then ya got all these others doing it.. it's like WTF??? anyways.. so her saying I'm all holy now cuz I don't smoke.. well damit I felt the same way b4 I don't like people behind the bar area when I'm working. Duh... what if I came up to a table and was standing in front of you when trying to take an order.. or serve some food.. Duh.. and the walking thru even bugs the crap outta me.. what if I walked thru the kitchen next to the grill and stoves to get to the back room.. ???? just not considerate I feel and 2nite being busy bugged the hell outta me. Let alone I hadda go back there and dump there overflowing ashtrays and wipe down the counters... I CLEAN off.. not considerate OK yeah so I may be bitchy about it.. I didn't like being told I'm goodie two shoes cuz I quit now.. but whatever.. guess I'm a nark LMAO.. oh well... if they'd just respect my area n space I wouldn't have been 1/2 as pissy about it as I am... and that Dishwasher is nasty anyways sometimes and her comments hit me in the total wrong way and the dumbness of customers coming up looking for tickets while waitresses hiding down smoking in the corner hits me as something that could easily happen if it already hasn't.
Whoaa venting bout work.. something I havn't done forever.. sopose I stay away from it now cuz I know ... but naa it's all cool at work.. just once and awhile it's like ??? WTF??? And bosses so nice n so sad sometimes to watch them be so nice always and some people just take it in one ear and out there other.. I've said b4 glad I don't have their job.. I'm too much a hard-ass I'm sure.. they have lots more compassion than I do.. So why am I such a bitch??? LOL I know I'd be good manager in a city atmosphere or when I was supervisor at the bank... cuz strict rules and write ups.. no shittin round there.. but in a laid back small town where everyone knows everyone and workers slim to none.. i sopose makes a difference too. Glad I don't own a business.. don't think I'd be cut out for it.. and no one would work for me.. or be good enough probably. Damn I'm bitchy LOL nooo really I'm a nice person and have a heart.. yeah I do.. it's just sometimes I feel respect givin should be returned with same respect. Some people sometimes seem to think the world and everyone in it owes them kinda feeling somedays. OMG i'm getting way off topic again. Phew.
Moral of story.. don't piss me off n do things I have said b4 not to do or I'll just keep jumpin yer ass n I didn't like having to blow infront of customers but damit get outta my way.. after all that Hugs n Kisses love ya bye... I'm not mad at anyone or anything just respect me as I do to you. I won't go flip the cooks steaks nor stand in the way of the dishwasher washing dishes or stand in the way of waitresses when they're serving their food or taking an order .. so stay outta my way.. how hard can that be to grasp?????? ??? ??? ??? LOL ok i'm off the dead subject just bugged me and don't take it too personal or to heart too much please cuz that's why I keep a journal.. just cuz everything I write may seem drastic and dramatic lots of times .. well most the time.. it's just my wild mind writing whatever I think.. and it's almost all the time not really thought-thru.. or well said .. just my expression at the time.. not to be meant EVER as my final thoughts.. or views.. at least not always. My venting tool.. to forget it..
Sometimes I feel if I didn't write what I feel/think or things that i think or upset me they'd just stay there upsetting me over n over and writing is my way to spit it all out and get it all off my chest.. regardless of who cares or reads or whatever.. just for me.. :) Always understand that. Mine's so much more a diary rather than a journal huh. OK I'm off to clean the house... would love to wake up and not do a thing.. plus I'm wired and so awake.. got off kinda early at home earlier at least and can't believe everyone in bed :( Oh well.. my time to play Nite