Howdy
Ewwww not feeling so hot at all this morning.. ohmiagwad feeling I drank some last night n didn't have a smoke:) Yeah think I've accomplished all the major things in my past that I associated smoking with n passed.. cept for the biggy of a fight.. hubs n I havn't really gotten into it where I wanna say FIt n run out n buy a pack which I hope I never do. Naaa I won't. Hubs n I seldom ever fight anyways were pretty boring sometime actually cuz he's just too nice n too agreeing LOL.. but was proud of myself for that but then other things I did I'm think oh Oh today like I think OMG I was doing something outside the bar up the hill when I know it was night but isn't that dark there n i'm on my knees n 2day thinking wonder what they thought inside cuz gotta think someone seen it n thought WTH???? LOL anyways.. I get home hubs is up I peek in n he's like BOO and I'm like ohhh crap. I say "Sorry home so late but thinking of you and so gonna die if I can't have ya n sooooo want ya in all the naughty ways.. n did a lil dance n a little touchin n doing a lil role playing which was funny now.. but made him happy I hope n he got it in everywhich way then got up at 515 n left to go pick up his daughters it's about a 9 hour round trip drive. I'm left laying alone thinking hummm wonder if anyone's mad at me for last night? I hope not I don't want anything but to make him smile in the worst way. Back to the thoughts I had 6 weeks ago that I did so good at for so long :)
DELETED.. sorry for those that got to read it I just hadda come back n delete after I thought more on it. Sometimes I write crazy n just write whatever spits outta my mind. No thinking involved just close my eyes n whatever I think I just write.. I probably said too much yet just can't help it that I like them n the un-wanting of another and i've been thru that 100 times so no use going there again. Plus I went places I should not have gone.. with my feelings.. So bye bye post