So I called my lil bro last night to yack and he told me this huge thing I can't say but I wanna.. cuz it's such great news but will try not to talk about it... anyways we talked for an hour and 1/2.. it was 1am when we hung up. It's so cold and rainy.. 30Degrees right now.. and to think it was 75 on monday. Sopose the rain will freeze some even being so chilly. I do have 2 work 2nite. I do not feel like I got much of anything done this week round the house.. it's OK looks good yet.
I'm feeling a little detached.. if a person can feel that way. I feel like I need to call all my relatives n such cuz I havn't talked to most of them since Christmas. Easter is coming but 1/2 them are either working or all my cousins are going to their in-laws and such now were all older we don't get together as much.. and living 2 hours away from most of them and more as well. I think i'll call a few this afternoon and say HI how r u kinda thing.
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Wonder if it will be busy with the chilly weather. I want to go to work.. then again I don't. T called me yesterday to talk and was telling me some things and how sun she felt someone was mean at her.. then by talking to someone else realized it has nothing to do with her. Errrrr I wish I didn't answer the phone. Just get that bad gutty feelin when I have to talk to her on a person level although I do think she is sincere with some comments.. for the most part I just feel it's a slap in the face.. as far as a friend goes.. and it's not that backstabbin it's the straight out feeling I know something and she's gotta know I know or think.. and to pussy foot around it or even the topic of the till pisses me instantly off. She goes ya know another waitress tried 2 go into the till the night she worked 4 me. Then says I don't know if I'd trust her. Whatever OMG don't start with me lady. Again that fustration feeling. I'm not going to worry my pretty head about it anymore and just hope 2nite is the night.
Then when I say that.. or am thinking it.. it's like an evil plot or something. waiting hoping for the snake to strike again. LOL i'm crazy somedays. It's just that it's not the same.. and the feelings there not the same.. the trust the friendship and it sucks tryin to pretend it is. The only thing I enjoy most about my job is the customers.. and most others i work with yes too.. Just walking in the door that 1st twinge of doubt is wiped away once I see a smile or something nice said..and I can redirect my thoughts into happy ones. Am I making any sense LOL..
again that detached feeling I need a hug moment... just to say Hey Huggies ohhhh thanks. OK I have to start lunch soon bye!