Ever just want to throw your puter out the window? I'm not a chat junkie anymore like I used to be b4 at all. I barley talk but once a week to my old chat buddies and it's usually bounceing jokes back and forth by email, most my males friends I've lost touch with and my Internet GF are still fun, yet not the same, but I don't miss that... I still find myself wasting time sitting here, not that I feel that way about journaling.. cuz I like that I can use this as means to sort stuff out and I find theraputic in other ways personally, but there is a million things I could/should be doing around here but I'm drawn to designing this.. making scrapbooks of my photo's editing photo's... dream shopping online, ebay, web surfing entirely from site to site just browsing and b4 ya know it 2 1/2 hours have passed when you just started out sitting down to write you mom an email and b4 ya know it it's 2am again. I'm feeling disorganized and scattered and not quite sure of myself, or anyone or thing in my life and it's driving me kinda nutty.
I'm thinking I need to come up with some plan for myself 1st off to overcome this feeling and more so get together with the family and have like a family discussion meeting or something where at least us parents and older children can say how they're feeling and give there thoughts... and maybe once a month do something special all together and also do one on one's more. I don't know for sure what's needed to help right now and frankly I'm kinda at a loss of thoughts 2nite.
My Mom did call quick 2nite to just say 99% chance they will be here for Xmas :) YEAH... I sopose I"m off to email her some pic's of our Xmas tree we put up and the kids, ohh and on our tree we have a little train that rides along a track 3/4 the way up the tree.. . it's so cute the kids just love it it chugs and smokes and whistles as it goes around... but it does get annoying and my baby wants it on all the time.